Do Your Dots Connect?

"You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle." - Steve Jobs

This is an excert from a commencment speech delived by Steve Jobs to Stanford University. These lines made me question my life in its entirety. Am I doing what I love? Am I passionate about what I do? Did I settle? Unfortunely, I think that the answers are not answers that I want to hear. After 29 years I am still searching for that one career path that will drive me to be great.

I feel as if I have taken the easy route. Now, let me explain that. Nothing about my job is easy. I may work 80 hours a week spread out between nights, evenings and weekends. I just feel that taking a job just because the pay is good and not taking a risk to see what else is out there is the easy way. Sometimes I think that I am just floating by wasting the best years of my life just beacuse I am affraid of what will happen if I let go and take a chance. For those of you lucky enough to have found that one passion..... I envy you. Growing up I always wanted to teach. I felt that if I could make a change in someones life, that would mean that I was successful. Right now the only change I make in someones life is the beer can they drink from.

I guess what I am rambling about is that I am still looking for my way to do great work. The drive to not settle is still there.... just the dots are not connecting. Maybe in the next few months or years I can look back and see that the dots did connect in a round about way.